Eveyone with a Facebook knows they forced everyone into a new layout, called the "timeline". Profiles were forced into it a week or so ago, but yesterday all the pages got forced into it as well. Well guess what? I fucking hate it! So do many others, but I just wanted to specify that said people are not alone.
There are aspects I like, like I like the whole cover picture idea. I feel it gives me the option to contiune being creative with the page. I also do like the idea of messaging, and the fact that I can see the notifications again without having to "Use Facebook as Page." I don't know if anyone else had this issue, but for the past couple days, I couldn't view the notifications with just my profile. It was quite aggravating -I was on my page more than my own profile!
However, what I simply hate is how the posts are set up. Its fucking confusing! There seems to be no order to anything now, and while it says you can rearrange everything, I have yet to figure out how. Facebook, why can't you ever make something that WORKS right away? Or better yet, just learn to fucking listen to your users. All people wanted was a dislike button, and a love button. That was easy compared to all the crap you've done. Mark Zuckerberg, stop getting bored and changing the layout. Its one thing when I do it, because all I do is change the scheme of it, I don't change the actual layout just to annoy people who look at my site.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Random Blog #17: My thoughts on this years Vans Warped 2012 lineup
Many of you know that I am, indeed going to Warped tour this year. Its a huge deal every year, but not everyone agrees that the lineup is good every year. I didn't go last year, and despite what most people thought, I thought they had some killer bands on it. Asking Alexandria, D.R.U.G.S, and Black Veil Brides, all in one place? Come on, that's epic.
This year however, I feel is a lot better. Huge bands like The Used, All Time Low, Four Year Strong, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens and others will all be there. Sleeping With Sirens isn't that big, but they're climbing in fame. I think this year they focused more on the well known bands, and less on the ones nobody's ever heard of. Don't get me wrong, its a great opprotunity for the up and coming bands, but you need the draw of the bigger bands or else people won't be as interested in going.
I am mainly going for All Time Low, Falling In Reverse, Catching Your Clouds, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, Mayday Parade, We Are The In Crowd, and Blessthefall. I'm sure I'll end up watching more, especially since I am going with someone who's a big fan of Four Year Strong and Breathe Carolina. This year rocks, and that is also why I am seriously hoping to get interviews. I have talked about this a lot, so you probably already know who all I want to interview.
It is mainly All Time Low and Falling In Reverse, but I will also be trying to Blessthefall, Four Year Strong, Pierce The Veil, We Are The In Crowd, Catching Your Clouds, and Sleeping With Sirens. So please submit questions to me, I need them. :)
So that's what I think about Warped tour this year? What do you think? Leave a comment here or on Music = Life telling me.
This year however, I feel is a lot better. Huge bands like The Used, All Time Low, Four Year Strong, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens and others will all be there. Sleeping With Sirens isn't that big, but they're climbing in fame. I think this year they focused more on the well known bands, and less on the ones nobody's ever heard of. Don't get me wrong, its a great opprotunity for the up and coming bands, but you need the draw of the bigger bands or else people won't be as interested in going.
I am mainly going for All Time Low, Falling In Reverse, Catching Your Clouds, Sleeping With Sirens, Pierce The Veil, Mayday Parade, We Are The In Crowd, and Blessthefall. I'm sure I'll end up watching more, especially since I am going with someone who's a big fan of Four Year Strong and Breathe Carolina. This year rocks, and that is also why I am seriously hoping to get interviews. I have talked about this a lot, so you probably already know who all I want to interview.
It is mainly All Time Low and Falling In Reverse, but I will also be trying to Blessthefall, Four Year Strong, Pierce The Veil, We Are The In Crowd, Catching Your Clouds, and Sleeping With Sirens. So please submit questions to me, I need them. :)
So that's what I think about Warped tour this year? What do you think? Leave a comment here or on Music = Life telling me.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Here's what's up.
Hey guys, I just wanted to take a minute to talk about what's coming up within the next couple of days. I'm not sure if anyone really cares when I post things, or really what I post, but just incase there is someone out there who cares, I'm going to take the time to tell everyone what's up. I mean, you wouldn't be reading this if you didn't want to know, right? Right. That'd just be silly.
Today, and probably tomorrow, I'm going to be taking a lot of time to review albums and one EP. I am reviewing Sick And Twisted Affair by My Darkest Days, Vulnerable by The Used, Growing Pains -EP by Lower Lands, and tomorrow I am getting Amaryllis by Shinedown. There will be a review for that as well.
I am also going to be posting the news here in a few minutes. Its mostly talking about releases, but there's a few other things added in. I also am going to probably change the layout for Immortal Music, and the profile picture on Immortal Music soon. I don't really know what bands will be featured this month, but I'm kind of thinking I'll either do something Warped tour themed, or Asking Alexandria for Immortal Music. I don't know yet, but I'm leaning more toward Asking Alexandria because it'd make more sense to have the Warped tour theme in July, when I'll be attending the festival.
I'll figure out, but I need a suggestion for the profile. Leave a comment on Music = Life suggesting one please. :)
Today, and probably tomorrow, I'm going to be taking a lot of time to review albums and one EP. I am reviewing Sick And Twisted Affair by My Darkest Days, Vulnerable by The Used, Growing Pains -EP by Lower Lands, and tomorrow I am getting Amaryllis by Shinedown. There will be a review for that as well.
I am also going to be posting the news here in a few minutes. Its mostly talking about releases, but there's a few other things added in. I also am going to probably change the layout for Immortal Music, and the profile picture on Immortal Music soon. I don't really know what bands will be featured this month, but I'm kind of thinking I'll either do something Warped tour themed, or Asking Alexandria for Immortal Music. I don't know yet, but I'm leaning more toward Asking Alexandria because it'd make more sense to have the Warped tour theme in July, when I'll be attending the festival.
I'll figure out, but I need a suggestion for the profile. Leave a comment on Music = Life suggesting one please. :)
Random Blog #16: Would you FUCK Danny Worsnop?
Once again, Bryan Stars has gotten me thinking. I'm sure by now you all know how Bryan gets me (and probably others), thinking a lot. Yesterday he posted a video asking if girls would fuck Danny Worsnop, or any other idolized band member. I latched right onto Danny, and the way he talks before I went on to even thinking about Danny.
Don't get me wrong, I love Danny, he's hilarious and seems awesome in interviews. He's also very cocky, he does get around, and because of that, I question if its a joke when he says he curculates STDs. I'm not saying he does have them, but I do question it a little. If he ever was to want me for whatever reason, I would have to clarify that he defentily is clean. Then maybe I'd consider it. The same deal goes with Ben Bruce, though I might be quicker to consider it with him over Danny. Just because out of all the AA boys, I think Ben is my favorite.
I've mentioned before, but even though I think of all these band guys like average fans do, I also try to keep it professional, and hesitate to even say this stuff on my blog, website, or page. Just in case some manager, or even the bands themselves saw it. Given, this profession really doesn't call for being professional 24/7, but I do think fucking the stars may be a little bit out of the question.
From the fan stance, I'm sure you all can see this coming...I would consider a lot of them. I talked about this a bit when Bryan posted a video asking if fans would date stars like Christopher Drew, Andy Biersack, ect, ect. I do have a list of band guys I would consider several of them. Such as Ben Bruce, Andy Biersack, Ashley Purdy, Danny Worsnop, Jordan (I still can not spell his last name) from The Ready Set, Drake Christopher, Alex Gaskgarth, Jack Barakat, um...well, there's probably more but I am now drawing a blank. Being who I am, I probably wouldn't ever accept, because I do have a reputation to uphold now. I mean, unless they spilled the beans, probably only my close friends would know what happened, but I don't know that. Shit does get out sometimes.
I'd have to think about it just as much as I would with any other person, so chances are, I would not end up fucking Danny or any other rockstar. How about you though? How do you feel about it. Leave a comment here or on Music = Life telling me.
Don't get me wrong, I love Danny, he's hilarious and seems awesome in interviews. He's also very cocky, he does get around, and because of that, I question if its a joke when he says he curculates STDs. I'm not saying he does have them, but I do question it a little. If he ever was to want me for whatever reason, I would have to clarify that he defentily is clean. Then maybe I'd consider it. The same deal goes with Ben Bruce, though I might be quicker to consider it with him over Danny. Just because out of all the AA boys, I think Ben is my favorite.
I've mentioned before, but even though I think of all these band guys like average fans do, I also try to keep it professional, and hesitate to even say this stuff on my blog, website, or page. Just in case some manager, or even the bands themselves saw it. Given, this profession really doesn't call for being professional 24/7, but I do think fucking the stars may be a little bit out of the question.
From the fan stance, I'm sure you all can see this coming...I would consider a lot of them. I talked about this a bit when Bryan posted a video asking if fans would date stars like Christopher Drew, Andy Biersack, ect, ect. I do have a list of band guys I would consider several of them. Such as Ben Bruce, Andy Biersack, Ashley Purdy, Danny Worsnop, Jordan (I still can not spell his last name) from The Ready Set, Drake Christopher, Alex Gaskgarth, Jack Barakat, um...well, there's probably more but I am now drawing a blank. Being who I am, I probably wouldn't ever accept, because I do have a reputation to uphold now. I mean, unless they spilled the beans, probably only my close friends would know what happened, but I don't know that. Shit does get out sometimes.
I'd have to think about it just as much as I would with any other person, so chances are, I would not end up fucking Danny or any other rockstar. How about you though? How do you feel about it. Leave a comment here or on Music = Life telling me.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Random Blog #15: Making a name for youself (and how I am doing it!)
We all know I am not famous, and I do not claim to be, but I do feel like one day my name will be well known. This is because I actually learn something from all the time I spend watching videos on YouTube, and how many hours I spend on Facebook.
I know that sounds insane. "You can't learn from watching YouTubers or sitting on Facebook. You're bloody insane!" Yes, you're suddenly British, and like to say "bloody" in place of where we Americans say, "fucking". That is untrue though! You can learn things. If you admin a page, pay attention to the other pages. What they post, and how they interact with the fans of the page. Also pay attention to how much they post, and what they post.
I personally like the pages that actually try to strike up conversation with the fans, and will respond to the comments. For some reason, not a lot of people do that, they just sort of see the comments and never respond. I don't understand why not, because the interaction is fun!
As I've mentioned before, I feel like I write these blogs as if I am talking to a camera. I've been told people like my style, and I personally really like the way Bryan Stars will make random videos just talking to his fans about whatever comes to his mind, as well as the important stuff. Or how people like DeeFizzy and Shane Dawson will just 'vlog' and talk to their fans as if they really knew every single one of them. How Shane will go all Shananay on someone's ass one second and then be asking "What's your favorite food?" the next. If you do not know what I'm talking about, go watch some of his main channel videos. You'll know Shanaynay as soon as you see her. Trust me, she's hard to miss.
Then DeeFizzy, he is simply just crazy and adorable. He says he's socially awkward, but he's so comfortable talking to people through YouTube. I personally am not socially awkward, in fact, I am the person who won't hesitate to walk right up to someone and start talking to them in the middle of Wal-Mart, but I like that freedom. I'd be making videos too, just ranting and raving about shit, if I had a camera that had good audio. I've complained about that before, and if you have read my other blogs, you know that.
I guess I just picked up how they act, and how I act normally, and just sort of fused them together to make my own style. I think whenever I get famous, having all these aspects will help a lot. I am serious when I say one day I will not only do the whole Bryan Stars thing where I interview people, do random music questions, and videos about the things going on in the music world. I also want to do vlogs like Deefizzy. I'd say Shane, but he does them every single day, and quite frankly, my life for the most part (at least for now) is boring, nobody wants to see that all the time.
So really, there's only a few steps to actually making yourself known. I'm still in the middle of the "I know what I'm doing, just nobody else knows it yet" stage. Check out the steps below, see if you agree with me, and if you have a dream these steps may apply to, go for it!
Step 1: Figure out what works for you.
If you're going to be a writer, like myself, not all writing styles work. I really can't explain mine, because these blogs, and the site aren't like stories where its in first person, or thrid person. Possibly even second, though I've never personally been clear on what that is. I guess techincally you can write in a style like that, since I am writing in first person, but I do think most blogs are actually in first person. Just because blogs are supposed to be personal, and first person really does that.
You can figure out what works for you by reading other blogs, even if they aren't about something you want to write about. Or you can do what I do and watch YouTubers, and sort of copy how they talk and turn it into a writing style. It sounds hard, but its really not. Writers will understand.
Step 2: Put your style into action!
All this means is you set your mind to it and do it! Much like I did with everything I write on Immortal Music. After you've done a little bit of it, share it with the world! Like, go share it on pages on Facebook. Your profile, your page, and pages that have similar topics. All of it will help! Facebook is your friend, just so you know. It actually really can help you a lot.
After that, you basically just have to keep it up. Contiune working on it, and spreading it around. Eventually, you will get known. :) See? Its true, you really can do anything if you set your mind to it.
Ok, you can do anything except fly. Please do not try that without a plane, helicopter, or jet. That will result in death.
I know that sounds insane. "You can't learn from watching YouTubers or sitting on Facebook. You're bloody insane!" Yes, you're suddenly British, and like to say "bloody" in place of where we Americans say, "fucking". That is untrue though! You can learn things. If you admin a page, pay attention to the other pages. What they post, and how they interact with the fans of the page. Also pay attention to how much they post, and what they post.
I personally like the pages that actually try to strike up conversation with the fans, and will respond to the comments. For some reason, not a lot of people do that, they just sort of see the comments and never respond. I don't understand why not, because the interaction is fun!
As I've mentioned before, I feel like I write these blogs as if I am talking to a camera. I've been told people like my style, and I personally really like the way Bryan Stars will make random videos just talking to his fans about whatever comes to his mind, as well as the important stuff. Or how people like DeeFizzy and Shane Dawson will just 'vlog' and talk to their fans as if they really knew every single one of them. How Shane will go all Shananay on someone's ass one second and then be asking "What's your favorite food?" the next. If you do not know what I'm talking about, go watch some of his main channel videos. You'll know Shanaynay as soon as you see her. Trust me, she's hard to miss.
Then DeeFizzy, he is simply just crazy and adorable. He says he's socially awkward, but he's so comfortable talking to people through YouTube. I personally am not socially awkward, in fact, I am the person who won't hesitate to walk right up to someone and start talking to them in the middle of Wal-Mart, but I like that freedom. I'd be making videos too, just ranting and raving about shit, if I had a camera that had good audio. I've complained about that before, and if you have read my other blogs, you know that.
I guess I just picked up how they act, and how I act normally, and just sort of fused them together to make my own style. I think whenever I get famous, having all these aspects will help a lot. I am serious when I say one day I will not only do the whole Bryan Stars thing where I interview people, do random music questions, and videos about the things going on in the music world. I also want to do vlogs like Deefizzy. I'd say Shane, but he does them every single day, and quite frankly, my life for the most part (at least for now) is boring, nobody wants to see that all the time.
So really, there's only a few steps to actually making yourself known. I'm still in the middle of the "I know what I'm doing, just nobody else knows it yet" stage. Check out the steps below, see if you agree with me, and if you have a dream these steps may apply to, go for it!
Step 1: Figure out what works for you.
If you're going to be a writer, like myself, not all writing styles work. I really can't explain mine, because these blogs, and the site aren't like stories where its in first person, or thrid person. Possibly even second, though I've never personally been clear on what that is. I guess techincally you can write in a style like that, since I am writing in first person, but I do think most blogs are actually in first person. Just because blogs are supposed to be personal, and first person really does that.
You can figure out what works for you by reading other blogs, even if they aren't about something you want to write about. Or you can do what I do and watch YouTubers, and sort of copy how they talk and turn it into a writing style. It sounds hard, but its really not. Writers will understand.
Step 2: Put your style into action!
All this means is you set your mind to it and do it! Much like I did with everything I write on Immortal Music. After you've done a little bit of it, share it with the world! Like, go share it on pages on Facebook. Your profile, your page, and pages that have similar topics. All of it will help! Facebook is your friend, just so you know. It actually really can help you a lot.
After that, you basically just have to keep it up. Contiune working on it, and spreading it around. Eventually, you will get known. :) See? Its true, you really can do anything if you set your mind to it.
Ok, you can do anything except fly. Please do not try that without a plane, helicopter, or jet. That will result in death.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Random Blog #14: Vans Warped tour 2012!
This year I will be attending my very first Vans Warped tour, and I could not be more excited! I think this lineup is more amazing than last year, what with big bands like The Used, All Time Low, Mayday Parade, Miss May I, Taking Back Sunday, Falling In Reverse, and so many other amazing bands. Last year was great, but this year is better.
I've heard for quite some time now that Vans Warped tour is the best place to meet these bands, so naturally my interviewer side is kicking in. I have been planning for weeks who all I wanted to interview, and just moments ago I emailed the two Warped tour managers about it. The website said that you need to email them and get a form, so I have not told them who all I wish to interview just yet. I'm still trying to decide myself.
The main two are All Time Low, perferablly Jack and Alex, and Falling In Reverse, preferably Ronnie Radke. I am going to specify that those two are my main ones, so if they can get that, I'd be very happy. I also am very much so interested in several others, which are listed below.
Blessthefall <--Pretty much guarenteed anyways, as a friend of mine is friends with Matt, their drummer.
The Used
Mayday Parade <--Maybe. I am having troubles thinking of questions for them since I just interviewed them back in November, and they have no new material for me to work with.
Pierce The Veil
Four Year Strong
Catching Your Clouds <---Though I mainly just want to meet him..I need to look up his music more.
We Are The In Crowd
You Me At Six
Breathe Carolina
Chunk! No Captian Chunk
Motionless In White <---Mostly because I've been asked several times if I'm going to interview them, and I do think it'd be a great thing for me to get that.
Sleeping With Sirens
Vanna
Vampires Everywhere
We Are The Ocean
Yellowcard
I think that's everyone, and I may not ask for everyone as that is a lot of bands to try to interview in one day. That's 18 bands! Holy fucking shit, I hadn't even noticed that. I think I'll cut it down some, and only ask for ten or eleven. I'm defentily asking for All Time Low, Falling In Reverse, Blessthefall, Pierce The Veil, and Sleeping With Sirens. Everyone else, well, that'll be decided when I get the form back from the managers.
If they say yes to anything, I do believe the press pass includes a photo pass, so not only will there be a ton of my own personal pictures but there'll probably be special pictures taken from VIP areas. Also, my friend and I will be "vlogging" some of our Warped tour adventures, and things before and after. We're planning some extra fun things that I may video tape later on.
I can not wait, am I the only one? Leave a comment letting me know who you want me to interview and who you can't wait to see!
I've heard for quite some time now that Vans Warped tour is the best place to meet these bands, so naturally my interviewer side is kicking in. I have been planning for weeks who all I wanted to interview, and just moments ago I emailed the two Warped tour managers about it. The website said that you need to email them and get a form, so I have not told them who all I wish to interview just yet. I'm still trying to decide myself.
The main two are All Time Low, perferablly Jack and Alex, and Falling In Reverse, preferably Ronnie Radke. I am going to specify that those two are my main ones, so if they can get that, I'd be very happy. I also am very much so interested in several others, which are listed below.
Blessthefall <--Pretty much guarenteed anyways, as a friend of mine is friends with Matt, their drummer.
The Used
Mayday Parade <--Maybe. I am having troubles thinking of questions for them since I just interviewed them back in November, and they have no new material for me to work with.
Pierce The Veil
Four Year Strong
Catching Your Clouds <---Though I mainly just want to meet him..I need to look up his music more.
We Are The In Crowd
You Me At Six
Breathe Carolina
Chunk! No Captian Chunk
Motionless In White <---Mostly because I've been asked several times if I'm going to interview them, and I do think it'd be a great thing for me to get that.
Sleeping With Sirens
Vanna
Vampires Everywhere
We Are The Ocean
Yellowcard
I think that's everyone, and I may not ask for everyone as that is a lot of bands to try to interview in one day. That's 18 bands! Holy fucking shit, I hadn't even noticed that. I think I'll cut it down some, and only ask for ten or eleven. I'm defentily asking for All Time Low, Falling In Reverse, Blessthefall, Pierce The Veil, and Sleeping With Sirens. Everyone else, well, that'll be decided when I get the form back from the managers.
If they say yes to anything, I do believe the press pass includes a photo pass, so not only will there be a ton of my own personal pictures but there'll probably be special pictures taken from VIP areas. Also, my friend and I will be "vlogging" some of our Warped tour adventures, and things before and after. We're planning some extra fun things that I may video tape later on.
I can not wait, am I the only one? Leave a comment letting me know who you want me to interview and who you can't wait to see!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
This is life.
I leave home in about two weeks, I've known that for a while, so why is it just now really hitting me? My family will be moving to a new house, without me, and I am leaving the only state I've ever lived in before. As I was packing up some stuff to make it easier on my family once I'm gone, it just hit me how truly scary that thought is.
I suppose I shouldn't be frightened, should I? Its just the way life goes, and we know that from the time we are all small children. Now I'm starting to understand what my mother is talking about. Her baby is grown up now, and is leaving her. I'm sorto f scared to leave now that that thought has hit me. I'm not saying I'm not going, so don't think like that, I'm simply saying it just hit me like a ton of bricks.
What didn't help is my brother asked me if they could turn my room into a game room while I'm away. Not cool, man, not cool. A lot of you out there are probably thinking, "God, what a baby! How old are you?" A lot of you might be out on your own, or just can't wait to get out, but I guess its different with me.
I've been home more often than not for the last nine years, when you're homeschooled that happens a lot. You see more of your kitchen table, and computer desk than you do the outsdie world. That doesn't nessicairly mean I was sheltered, it simply means I've always been home. I've also never been out of the state before for so long, or without my mother there. The last time I left Florida, I was only eight years old, and we were taking my great grandparents to Indiana, where they still live. That was ten years ago, so its sort of a shock to realize what I'm doing.
I've talked about this before, and I can assure you that you have not heard the last about this. Expect more blogs much like this one once I'm up there, simply saying how things are going, and how much I miss my home. That'll change, I'm fairly certain with time that'll become my home. I'd suppose it'd have to, since I'm spending six months up there.
I just come here to vent, I guess. I don't want to go crying to my mother, as she's already been highly upset over this. I just need to get it off my chest in a way that I see fit. This way too, I don't need to bother anyone, I can feel like I'm actually venting without anyone really listening. I still don't know if more than two people read my blog, and part of me for now doesn't get. Its pretty much my online diary, so who cares if people read it? I don't know, I guess I'll be ok, it'll just take a little while to not only get used to the idea, but get used to it being reality.
I think that's the thing, we've been planning this for so long without any results, it just always felt more like a dream. Something that's fun to think about, but will never really happen. Now that I know its a reality, its a whole new concept.
I suppose I shouldn't be frightened, should I? Its just the way life goes, and we know that from the time we are all small children. Now I'm starting to understand what my mother is talking about. Her baby is grown up now, and is leaving her. I'm sorto f scared to leave now that that thought has hit me. I'm not saying I'm not going, so don't think like that, I'm simply saying it just hit me like a ton of bricks.
What didn't help is my brother asked me if they could turn my room into a game room while I'm away. Not cool, man, not cool. A lot of you out there are probably thinking, "God, what a baby! How old are you?" A lot of you might be out on your own, or just can't wait to get out, but I guess its different with me.
I've been home more often than not for the last nine years, when you're homeschooled that happens a lot. You see more of your kitchen table, and computer desk than you do the outsdie world. That doesn't nessicairly mean I was sheltered, it simply means I've always been home. I've also never been out of the state before for so long, or without my mother there. The last time I left Florida, I was only eight years old, and we were taking my great grandparents to Indiana, where they still live. That was ten years ago, so its sort of a shock to realize what I'm doing.
I've talked about this before, and I can assure you that you have not heard the last about this. Expect more blogs much like this one once I'm up there, simply saying how things are going, and how much I miss my home. That'll change, I'm fairly certain with time that'll become my home. I'd suppose it'd have to, since I'm spending six months up there.
I just come here to vent, I guess. I don't want to go crying to my mother, as she's already been highly upset over this. I just need to get it off my chest in a way that I see fit. This way too, I don't need to bother anyone, I can feel like I'm actually venting without anyone really listening. I still don't know if more than two people read my blog, and part of me for now doesn't get. Its pretty much my online diary, so who cares if people read it? I don't know, I guess I'll be ok, it'll just take a little while to not only get used to the idea, but get used to it being reality.
I think that's the thing, we've been planning this for so long without any results, it just always felt more like a dream. Something that's fun to think about, but will never really happen. Now that I know its a reality, its a whole new concept.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Random Blog #13: Caring about people, doesn't mean you're "motherly."
I have the one video on YouTube, that is for some reason insanely popular. Its a lyric video for "Not Strong Enough" by Apocalyptica featuring Shinedown's Brent Smith. People comment on it daily, and every so often, someone will comment with some troubling posts. I'm sure some of them are just for attention, but hopefully there actually is something wrong, and they aren't just looking for attention.
I see a lot of people saying things like "Death is sweeter than life", and "I'm not strong enough to stay alive." Both of those are real comments that have been posted on my "Not Strong Enough" video, and naturally, I wanted to respond. If they were serious about what they said, just one comment from me could possibly brighten their spirits a little bit and get them to think a bit before they did something harsh.
I've done this several times now, and this morning I woke up to a reply from another person saying, "If you are a girl, you are a mother. You're too motherly. You're not human." So many questions rose when I read this. I am a girl, who does really care about others, but how does that make me a mother? Also, how in the hell can you be 'too motherly'? Or for that matter, how the FUCK does that make me something inhuman? Seriously, what the hell?
Look, I know sympathy, and real compassion has become a fleeting thing in today's society, but it is indeed real. I don't know why, but I always feel like I should reach out to some people who need it. Yes, sometimes I'm setting myself to be made fun of because they really didn't need help, but I fell for their act. If anything, that's just them being cruel. You shouldn't ever fake something for attention, there's plenty other ways to get attention.
I've been hurt before, infact, I've been hurt to the point I didn't want to care about a single person for months. So, I didn't care about much of anything for quite some time, but that's not me, so I'm back to caring about people. I just have learned now that there's a line. If people cross that line, then I'm done, and they will have to really earn my trust back, and get me to care about them again. That's the challange.
Anyways, I don't know what that person was thinking. I seriously do not understand how caring about people when you're a girl automatically makes you an inhuman mother. Its just like what the fuck.
I see a lot of people saying things like "Death is sweeter than life", and "I'm not strong enough to stay alive." Both of those are real comments that have been posted on my "Not Strong Enough" video, and naturally, I wanted to respond. If they were serious about what they said, just one comment from me could possibly brighten their spirits a little bit and get them to think a bit before they did something harsh.
I've done this several times now, and this morning I woke up to a reply from another person saying, "If you are a girl, you are a mother. You're too motherly. You're not human." So many questions rose when I read this. I am a girl, who does really care about others, but how does that make me a mother? Also, how in the hell can you be 'too motherly'? Or for that matter, how the FUCK does that make me something inhuman? Seriously, what the hell?
Look, I know sympathy, and real compassion has become a fleeting thing in today's society, but it is indeed real. I don't know why, but I always feel like I should reach out to some people who need it. Yes, sometimes I'm setting myself to be made fun of because they really didn't need help, but I fell for their act. If anything, that's just them being cruel. You shouldn't ever fake something for attention, there's plenty other ways to get attention.
I've been hurt before, infact, I've been hurt to the point I didn't want to care about a single person for months. So, I didn't care about much of anything for quite some time, but that's not me, so I'm back to caring about people. I just have learned now that there's a line. If people cross that line, then I'm done, and they will have to really earn my trust back, and get me to care about them again. That's the challange.
Anyways, I don't know what that person was thinking. I seriously do not understand how caring about people when you're a girl automatically makes you an inhuman mother. Its just like what the fuck.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Not sleeping -FTW?
No, getting no sleep is defentily not 'for the win'. Unlike one day last week, this time is actually my own fault. Never get a full liter bottle of Pepsi in the afternoon when you know damned good and well that you will not have it gone until 9:30 PM. Unless you handle caffine better than I do.
The only thing about being up this so fucking early is The 90's Are All That on Nickelodon, which I already talked about in a previous blog. Right now they are playing Hey Arnold, and I can't help but be reminded of the fact that nobody realized that Arnold was wearing a shirt, not a kilt. Am I the only one who actually always knew that was a shirt? I never thought it was a kilt, given I don't know why I didn't, but I didn't.
So I am sitting here thinking I should work on typing album reviews, as I have a few of them currently in my notebook ready to be typed up. Am I going to do it? Probably not. Even though I am awake, I somehow do not see myself getting anything done. I'm actually sort of getting sleepy again. Should I go back to bed? Why am I asking you these questions? I mean, that's rather silly, honestly, considering I will have decided after this is posted.
Oh well, maybe my rambling to myself will amuse someone after I publish this to the interwebs. I'm not normally one that debates on going back to bed, but I'm just awake enough, I really don't think it'd be worth it to attempt to sleep now. Its four am, and knowing my family, they'll all be getting up soon. I've always seemed to notice they're louder in the mornings when I don't sleep. Maybe its just me, but I am not so sure.
I also feel I need to mention this. Has anyone else heard that the Flip video cameras are being discontiuned? I can't imagine why really, they're insanely popular. Now a days, most big YouTubers use those to film their videos. They're good quality, and affordable. I told my mom about that last night, not long after I found out. I think I may try to convince her to get me one before they're all sold out. You know what that means! If I get a flip video, on top of these blogs, I will also have video logs. I know those are generally called 'vlogs', but that has never sounded right to me. Not in a million years, and I do not get why at all.
Now I feel like I'm really rambling. I'm gonna go play Angry Birds. I love that they've put that on Facebook, as I am not cool enough to have an iPad, or any form of smart phone.
The only thing about being up this so fucking early is The 90's Are All That on Nickelodon, which I already talked about in a previous blog. Right now they are playing Hey Arnold, and I can't help but be reminded of the fact that nobody realized that Arnold was wearing a shirt, not a kilt. Am I the only one who actually always knew that was a shirt? I never thought it was a kilt, given I don't know why I didn't, but I didn't.
So I am sitting here thinking I should work on typing album reviews, as I have a few of them currently in my notebook ready to be typed up. Am I going to do it? Probably not. Even though I am awake, I somehow do not see myself getting anything done. I'm actually sort of getting sleepy again. Should I go back to bed? Why am I asking you these questions? I mean, that's rather silly, honestly, considering I will have decided after this is posted.
Oh well, maybe my rambling to myself will amuse someone after I publish this to the interwebs. I'm not normally one that debates on going back to bed, but I'm just awake enough, I really don't think it'd be worth it to attempt to sleep now. Its four am, and knowing my family, they'll all be getting up soon. I've always seemed to notice they're louder in the mornings when I don't sleep. Maybe its just me, but I am not so sure.
I also feel I need to mention this. Has anyone else heard that the Flip video cameras are being discontiuned? I can't imagine why really, they're insanely popular. Now a days, most big YouTubers use those to film their videos. They're good quality, and affordable. I told my mom about that last night, not long after I found out. I think I may try to convince her to get me one before they're all sold out. You know what that means! If I get a flip video, on top of these blogs, I will also have video logs. I know those are generally called 'vlogs', but that has never sounded right to me. Not in a million years, and I do not get why at all.
Now I feel like I'm really rambling. I'm gonna go play Angry Birds. I love that they've put that on Facebook, as I am not cool enough to have an iPad, or any form of smart phone.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Random topic #12: Leaving home for the first time
We all have to do it sometime, its just life, but has anyone ever thought of how hard it really is? I am not moving out on my own, but in a way, I am moving out. Everyone knows that I am going to Indiana to stay with my best friend for six months, and as the date gets closer, my mother has made it more clear how much she doesn't want me to go.
She isn't trying to stop me, but she has informed me that she's cried in the arms of friends thinking about it, and of how much she is totally dreading this. I know its totally normal, but it sort of breaks my heart a little. I wasn't too concerned about it until one day last week, when she informed me that I am her favorite person in the entire world.
A lot of people aren't that close with their mothers, but I am really close with my mother. We can talk about just about anything. I guess you could say we're 'friends', I just personally choose not to say that. I now feel like an awful person leaving her for six months, I really do. I still want to go, but I can't help but feel terrible for it.
She hasn't tried to make me feel guilty, she's only expressed her feelings, but I feel awful...can anyone make this better?
She isn't trying to stop me, but she has informed me that she's cried in the arms of friends thinking about it, and of how much she is totally dreading this. I know its totally normal, but it sort of breaks my heart a little. I wasn't too concerned about it until one day last week, when she informed me that I am her favorite person in the entire world.
A lot of people aren't that close with their mothers, but I am really close with my mother. We can talk about just about anything. I guess you could say we're 'friends', I just personally choose not to say that. I now feel like an awful person leaving her for six months, I really do. I still want to go, but I can't help but feel terrible for it.
She hasn't tried to make me feel guilty, she's only expressed her feelings, but I feel awful...can anyone make this better?
Random Blog #11: Street Art
Where I live, you don't see a lot of "street art", or as others may know it, graffiti. Personally though, I think its quite cool. I have a friend who goes to an art college in Georgia and she has showed me pictures of some of the graffiti around there. A lot of it is quite lovely, and to be honest, I feel like if its done right, it could make someone's day a whole lot brighter.
Art is a wonderful thing, so wouldn't it be cool to go into certain parts of a town and see a mural of different art styles on every wall, sidewalk and road? Alright, forget the road part, that could get rather dangerous.
Sure, there's some bad graffiti that is either poorly done, or vulgar. That being said, I say if you run, say a venue that holds rock concerts or something, even vulgar works of art are alright. I think more towns should allow it, because it can bring character to a building or town.
Think about it, we all want to decorate our way, but at least here in America, there's so many laws about how you can decorate the outside of your house. Why though? What does it really matter? I personally think its a way to express yourself, much like anything else in this world.
Art is a wonderful thing, so wouldn't it be cool to go into certain parts of a town and see a mural of different art styles on every wall, sidewalk and road? Alright, forget the road part, that could get rather dangerous.
Sure, there's some bad graffiti that is either poorly done, or vulgar. That being said, I say if you run, say a venue that holds rock concerts or something, even vulgar works of art are alright. I think more towns should allow it, because it can bring character to a building or town.
Think about it, we all want to decorate our way, but at least here in America, there's so many laws about how you can decorate the outside of your house. Why though? What does it really matter? I personally think its a way to express yourself, much like anything else in this world.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Random Blog #10: Pet peeves
Do you have something that just generally pisses you off? Something that irritates you so much that you just want to slap someone? Okay, sometimes its not that bad, but depending on your pet peeve, you may need to slap someone.
I am over all a fairly carefree, and happy person, but a lot of things irritate me a lot. For starters, I hate when people disregard what I'm saying, or just don't respond to me. Its one thing to do that online, but when I say something to you in person, I'd like to know you actually heard me. I'm a very soft spoken person, most of the time, so I generally assume that people didn't hear me speak if they don't respond to me.
I talk a lot, so I hate when someone continuously interupts my sentence. Like when I say, "Oh yeah, Mom-" and my brother goes, "I forgot to tell you, I reached this achievement in my game." I tend to let him say it, and then I try to talk again, "I really want to-", Brother, "You have to shoot this guy and then-" "Dude! Do you really not hear me fucking talking over here? Let me speak, damnit!" Its mainly my brother and dad that interuppt me as if they couldn't hear me talking. It happens the most with my brother, I'm beginning to wonder if he can hear my voice ever.
Something elses that annoys me is know it alls. You know the ones, the ones like Sheldon Cooper on Big Bang Theory, who live mainly to correct people and pretend they're superior because they know a lot. I don't care if you're smart, or even if you show it, but don't talk to me like I know nothing just because I am not a genius. We all know someone like that, who walks around talking in nothing but big words and correcting people nearly everytime someone speaks. Those are the kind of people I just want to punch in the jaw and tell them to shut the hell up.
There's a lot of things that irritate me, like catty girls, bitchy girlfriends who think they own their boyfriends, and when people pick me up. I am a small person, just barely 100lbs and am under five foot, and for that reason people like to pick me up. I let very few people pick me up, and I really hate it when someone picks me up instead of telling me to move.
So telle me, what bothers you?
I am over all a fairly carefree, and happy person, but a lot of things irritate me a lot. For starters, I hate when people disregard what I'm saying, or just don't respond to me. Its one thing to do that online, but when I say something to you in person, I'd like to know you actually heard me. I'm a very soft spoken person, most of the time, so I generally assume that people didn't hear me speak if they don't respond to me.
I talk a lot, so I hate when someone continuously interupts my sentence. Like when I say, "Oh yeah, Mom-" and my brother goes, "I forgot to tell you, I reached this achievement in my game." I tend to let him say it, and then I try to talk again, "I really want to-", Brother, "You have to shoot this guy and then-" "Dude! Do you really not hear me fucking talking over here? Let me speak, damnit!" Its mainly my brother and dad that interuppt me as if they couldn't hear me talking. It happens the most with my brother, I'm beginning to wonder if he can hear my voice ever.
Something elses that annoys me is know it alls. You know the ones, the ones like Sheldon Cooper on Big Bang Theory, who live mainly to correct people and pretend they're superior because they know a lot. I don't care if you're smart, or even if you show it, but don't talk to me like I know nothing just because I am not a genius. We all know someone like that, who walks around talking in nothing but big words and correcting people nearly everytime someone speaks. Those are the kind of people I just want to punch in the jaw and tell them to shut the hell up.
There's a lot of things that irritate me, like catty girls, bitchy girlfriends who think they own their boyfriends, and when people pick me up. I am a small person, just barely 100lbs and am under five foot, and for that reason people like to pick me up. I let very few people pick me up, and I really hate it when someone picks me up instead of telling me to move.
So telle me, what bothers you?
How I would handle dating a rockstar
Face it, most of us have thought at one point what it must be like to date a rockstar. Or at least the girls out there have, I think, just because there's more male rockstars than there are females. Not trying to sound sexist, its just the truth.
Bryan Stars (as per usual) posted a thought provoking video, asking if people would want to date their favorite rockstar. Keep in mind that they aren't there a lot, and when they are, they often still have some band business to take careof. So, they have virtually no time for you. Could you handle that?
I personally, in my own little fantasy world where I could stand touring and generally go with them on every tour, say I could, but in all actuality, I probably couldn't. Not only is it a long distance relationship, that could possibly leave your boyfriend/ girlfriend on the opposite side of the globe from you, but you never know what they're going to be doing. You'd have to know they were truly faithful, and smart about stuff. Not only is there the concern of them possibly giving into a horny fan one night just because they're getting desperate, but you'd worry about their safety.
Say you were Juliet Simms, as many of you know she herself is a singer and is dating Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides. Considering how accident prone Andy is, I'm not sure how she stands to stay behind while he goes to another land, where he could potentially harm himself. Again. I couldn't stand to be Andy's girlfriend, as much as I adore him, I really couldn't. I'd be too worried that I'd get a phone call saying that he hurt himself in a serious way, and wouldn't be able to return home until he was recovered.
I think you'd have to figure out how to unattatch yourself when they're gone, and how could you possibly do that? Now if they weren't gone most of the time, I'd say Matt Good, Christopher Drew, and Jordan from The Ready Set would make incredibly sweet boyfriends. They just seem like major sweeties, and that's a big factor to me when it comes to someone I'd personally date.
As for the whole "rockstars I'd like to fuck" (RILF?), list that comes about when I step down from the professional side of things and just start being a fan, I have quite the long list. I adore; Jack Barakat and Alex Gasgarth from All Time Low, all of Black Veil Brides, Ben Bruce from Asking Alexandria, Oli Skyes, Jordan Witzigreuter, Drake Christopher of CatchingYourClouds, Nick Jonas (Yes, seriously, Nick Jonas), um...I feel like I'm forgetting someone, but there's a lot of rockstars I really adore. Some of them are just really sexy to me, not just by looks, but by how they act. Like Jordan from The Ready Set, he's adorable inside and out, so is Drake Christopher. Really I like the personalities of all of those people listed, except Oli Skyes. I know nothing about him, I don't even really like Bring Me The Horizon. I just find him to be incredibly attractive.
So leave a comment, tell me about the rockstars you'd like to fuck, and if you could stand to date them. If you want to see Bryan's video I did share it yesterday on Music = Life, but you can also view it by going right here to see what Bryan had to say about everything.
Bryan Stars (as per usual) posted a thought provoking video, asking if people would want to date their favorite rockstar. Keep in mind that they aren't there a lot, and when they are, they often still have some band business to take careof. So, they have virtually no time for you. Could you handle that?
I personally, in my own little fantasy world where I could stand touring and generally go with them on every tour, say I could, but in all actuality, I probably couldn't. Not only is it a long distance relationship, that could possibly leave your boyfriend/ girlfriend on the opposite side of the globe from you, but you never know what they're going to be doing. You'd have to know they were truly faithful, and smart about stuff. Not only is there the concern of them possibly giving into a horny fan one night just because they're getting desperate, but you'd worry about their safety.
Say you were Juliet Simms, as many of you know she herself is a singer and is dating Andy Biersack of Black Veil Brides. Considering how accident prone Andy is, I'm not sure how she stands to stay behind while he goes to another land, where he could potentially harm himself. Again. I couldn't stand to be Andy's girlfriend, as much as I adore him, I really couldn't. I'd be too worried that I'd get a phone call saying that he hurt himself in a serious way, and wouldn't be able to return home until he was recovered.
I think you'd have to figure out how to unattatch yourself when they're gone, and how could you possibly do that? Now if they weren't gone most of the time, I'd say Matt Good, Christopher Drew, and Jordan from The Ready Set would make incredibly sweet boyfriends. They just seem like major sweeties, and that's a big factor to me when it comes to someone I'd personally date.
As for the whole "rockstars I'd like to fuck" (RILF?), list that comes about when I step down from the professional side of things and just start being a fan, I have quite the long list. I adore; Jack Barakat and Alex Gasgarth from All Time Low, all of Black Veil Brides, Ben Bruce from Asking Alexandria, Oli Skyes, Jordan Witzigreuter, Drake Christopher of CatchingYourClouds, Nick Jonas (Yes, seriously, Nick Jonas), um...I feel like I'm forgetting someone, but there's a lot of rockstars I really adore. Some of them are just really sexy to me, not just by looks, but by how they act. Like Jordan from The Ready Set, he's adorable inside and out, so is Drake Christopher. Really I like the personalities of all of those people listed, except Oli Skyes. I know nothing about him, I don't even really like Bring Me The Horizon. I just find him to be incredibly attractive.
So leave a comment, tell me about the rockstars you'd like to fuck, and if you could stand to date them. If you want to see Bryan's video I did share it yesterday on Music = Life, but you can also view it by going right here to see what Bryan had to say about everything.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Random Blog #9: The 90's Are All That (Teen Nick)
I was up all night last night. When I say all night, I quite litterally mean all night. I slept for about an hour and a half and woke up. Its 7 am, and I woke up at 1:22 in the fucking morning. I'm sure you can imagine how I feel right now. One good thing came out of it though, not only did I write three album reviews, but I got to watch what Teen Nick calls "The 90's Are All That."
For those who don't know, that's a four hour block of nothing but old, 90's shows like Kenan & Kel, All That, Hey Arnold, Rugrats, Rocko's Modern Life, ect. Except the did break that a bit last night, they played two episodes of Rugrats that were from 2001, not the 90's. Whatever though, I enjoyed it. They came up with that after thousands of people went to Nickelodon saying they need a channel just for the old Nickelodon stuff, because the new shows suck. Of course though, they didn't fully listen to people.
Don't get me wrong, they have a few good ones. iCarly was good for a while, but is slowly getting less funny, Victorious is alright, and I do like How To Rock, but its sort of their verison of That's So Raven. Not even kidding, they totally redid an episode of That's So Raven a few weeks ago, I'm not sure how Nick got away with that.
Back onto my topic, bare with me, guys, I'm running on practically no sleep. I was watching TV last night, and I woke up about half way through Kenan And Kel, so I watched that, and then Rugrats came on. It was actually a two part episode, and it was right before Kimi came into the picture. I actually did remember this episode, it was the one where they went to the drive in, and the babies end up making this whole big scenerio about Angelica making an evil robot Reptar after she kidnapped the real Reptar and sent the robot one to destroy the town. So many thoughts came to mind, but this was after I noticed something.
Near the beginning of the episode, you see Grandpa Lou's liscence plate, and it says simply, "Im Old." Why had I never noticed that before? Another thing I noticed was the movie they were seeing was supposed to be a Japanese movie dubbed in English. I'm not sure why I never noticed before, but they even did that thing where the mouths move faster than the words actually come like real Japanese movies. I may have noticed that when I was younger, but I do not remember.
I also was sitting there thinking, "How can they fit so much evil into a three year old little girl?" I mean, she's a brat and everyone knows it, but then she goes and makes something to destroy a city just because she got bored of seeing the same things happen in the Reptar movies. I was like, "She probably weighs like fourty pounds, maybe, so where the hell does all the evil go? Does she have a good bone in her body?" She can be good, she just rarely is. Also, according to Chuckie at least, the entire time span of the show up to 2001 at least was only three months in the actual show. I know this because they were talking about flying that Reptar wagon, and Chuckie being the worrier he is, said something along the lines of, "Tommy, you've only been walking about three months, I don't think you should be flying."
I was like seriously?! Tommy walks in the very first episode, techincally in the unaired pilot to be exact (which was actually made in '91, not '92) so it took them nine/ ten years to go through three months? I bet the entire series was only one year then. I believe it ended in 2004 or so? I don't remember, and I'm too lazy to actually look it up. No wonder they only celebrated Tommy's birthday once, in the first episode. Did they ever celebrate Phil And Lil's birthday, or anyone's except for Tommy and that Timmy kid? I don't remember any parties or anyone else. Oh, and of course Dill, but then again, not really. He was born in the first movie, and they never had him have his first birthday.
Oh the realizations about the shows you watched as a kid. They can be so much fun. 'Course who would have ever thought someone would put this much thought into Rugrats, but that's something I do. I've noticed I overthink a lot anyways, but I think even more so in the middle of the night, if I'm wide awake. If I'm actually trying to sleep, then no. I just think about the fact that I want sleep.
For those who don't know, that's a four hour block of nothing but old, 90's shows like Kenan & Kel, All That, Hey Arnold, Rugrats, Rocko's Modern Life, ect. Except the did break that a bit last night, they played two episodes of Rugrats that were from 2001, not the 90's. Whatever though, I enjoyed it. They came up with that after thousands of people went to Nickelodon saying they need a channel just for the old Nickelodon stuff, because the new shows suck. Of course though, they didn't fully listen to people.
Don't get me wrong, they have a few good ones. iCarly was good for a while, but is slowly getting less funny, Victorious is alright, and I do like How To Rock, but its sort of their verison of That's So Raven. Not even kidding, they totally redid an episode of That's So Raven a few weeks ago, I'm not sure how Nick got away with that.
Back onto my topic, bare with me, guys, I'm running on practically no sleep. I was watching TV last night, and I woke up about half way through Kenan And Kel, so I watched that, and then Rugrats came on. It was actually a two part episode, and it was right before Kimi came into the picture. I actually did remember this episode, it was the one where they went to the drive in, and the babies end up making this whole big scenerio about Angelica making an evil robot Reptar after she kidnapped the real Reptar and sent the robot one to destroy the town. So many thoughts came to mind, but this was after I noticed something.
Near the beginning of the episode, you see Grandpa Lou's liscence plate, and it says simply, "Im Old." Why had I never noticed that before? Another thing I noticed was the movie they were seeing was supposed to be a Japanese movie dubbed in English. I'm not sure why I never noticed before, but they even did that thing where the mouths move faster than the words actually come like real Japanese movies. I may have noticed that when I was younger, but I do not remember.
I also was sitting there thinking, "How can they fit so much evil into a three year old little girl?" I mean, she's a brat and everyone knows it, but then she goes and makes something to destroy a city just because she got bored of seeing the same things happen in the Reptar movies. I was like, "She probably weighs like fourty pounds, maybe, so where the hell does all the evil go? Does she have a good bone in her body?" She can be good, she just rarely is. Also, according to Chuckie at least, the entire time span of the show up to 2001 at least was only three months in the actual show. I know this because they were talking about flying that Reptar wagon, and Chuckie being the worrier he is, said something along the lines of, "Tommy, you've only been walking about three months, I don't think you should be flying."
I was like seriously?! Tommy walks in the very first episode, techincally in the unaired pilot to be exact (which was actually made in '91, not '92) so it took them nine/ ten years to go through three months? I bet the entire series was only one year then. I believe it ended in 2004 or so? I don't remember, and I'm too lazy to actually look it up. No wonder they only celebrated Tommy's birthday once, in the first episode. Did they ever celebrate Phil And Lil's birthday, or anyone's except for Tommy and that Timmy kid? I don't remember any parties or anyone else. Oh, and of course Dill, but then again, not really. He was born in the first movie, and they never had him have his first birthday.
Oh the realizations about the shows you watched as a kid. They can be so much fun. 'Course who would have ever thought someone would put this much thought into Rugrats, but that's something I do. I've noticed I overthink a lot anyways, but I think even more so in the middle of the night, if I'm wide awake. If I'm actually trying to sleep, then no. I just think about the fact that I want sleep.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Random Blog #8: Suicide
This is a pretty serious topic that is discussed a lot. I've seen two different comments lately on a video of mine on YouTube that is highly popular. The video is a lyric video for "Not Strong Enough" by Apocalyptica featuring Brent Smith of Shinedown, and its spurred a lot of conversations in the comment section. I enjoy that, but this past week I have seen things get said such as "Death is sweeter than life..." and "I'm not strong enough to stay alive." Such comments worry me, because what if they're serious?
Sometimes people just say it hoping people will reach out to them. That's not right on one level, but on another, sometimes you get desperate enough that you will do anything for people to listen to you. I responded to both people, telling them to talk to someone right away, or to talk to me even if they wanted.
I want to take a minute to say something to anyone out there who's ever felt like killing themselves. Don't do it. Stop planning your death, and start focusing on your future. Regardless of what you think now, life is wonderful, and you will amount to things one day. Chances are, you're currently just a kid in high school or middle school. Yes, it sucks, you can't do half the shit you want, but you know what? If you end things now, you'll never get to reach your dreams. You know, the things you have always wanted to do, like travel to certain places, meet certain people, do certain things. Things like that don't just happen on their own, usually, you have to work for them. Don't say you're worthless, because you're not.
In my book, everyone is worth something, because its not always what you do in life, its who you are. More than likely, you're a sweet, kind hearted person, who's been mistreated by others. The people who made you feel like that, are the worthless ones, not you. Life does bring you down sometimes, but sometimes you feel so alive that you can't help but smile. You just have to take the good with the bad, because without the bad, you won't ever appericate the good.
Let the bad things drive you to reach further for the the good things. I will admit, life has beaten me down before. I felt more broken then I ever thought was possible last year, my whole world fell apart. I guess I scared my mom by the way I was acting, as she told me after I got better that she was afraid I was going to kill myself. Hearing that shocked me, as the thought only crossed my mind once. I admit it completely, it did cross my mind, after I felt so alone in the world, but then I thought, "That's stupid. He's not worth it."
I had my entire world taken from me, and it killed a part of me that'll never come back, and it does still hurt sometimes, but I do let it drive me. Perhaps its a little mean, but everytime I do something I know he would have enjoyed, I tell him. I'm talking about my ex best friend, who meant the world to me. His family became my second family, and I loved him with everything I had. We spent pretty much every day together for a year, but his girlfriend wanted none of that, and she took him away from me. It was terrible, she'll never realize what she did to me either. He made me who I am today, and I wouldn't be going for the dreams I am now if it had not been for him.
There was a short while where I didn't want to do any of this stuff, for that fact. I considered quitting, but honestly, the best revenge is a smile. Or even better, telling them when you got to go in front of the barricade for one band, on stage with another, hang out with another one, and when you got interviews you know they would have wanted to be there for. 'Course that's what I do. Basically what you want to prove to them you won't let them get the satisfaction of seeing you be down. That's what people tend to want, you want to prove you can live without them.
Seriously though, if you are feeling that way, don't hesitate to talk to someone. I'm here too, if you want.
Sometimes people just say it hoping people will reach out to them. That's not right on one level, but on another, sometimes you get desperate enough that you will do anything for people to listen to you. I responded to both people, telling them to talk to someone right away, or to talk to me even if they wanted.
I want to take a minute to say something to anyone out there who's ever felt like killing themselves. Don't do it. Stop planning your death, and start focusing on your future. Regardless of what you think now, life is wonderful, and you will amount to things one day. Chances are, you're currently just a kid in high school or middle school. Yes, it sucks, you can't do half the shit you want, but you know what? If you end things now, you'll never get to reach your dreams. You know, the things you have always wanted to do, like travel to certain places, meet certain people, do certain things. Things like that don't just happen on their own, usually, you have to work for them. Don't say you're worthless, because you're not.
In my book, everyone is worth something, because its not always what you do in life, its who you are. More than likely, you're a sweet, kind hearted person, who's been mistreated by others. The people who made you feel like that, are the worthless ones, not you. Life does bring you down sometimes, but sometimes you feel so alive that you can't help but smile. You just have to take the good with the bad, because without the bad, you won't ever appericate the good.
Let the bad things drive you to reach further for the the good things. I will admit, life has beaten me down before. I felt more broken then I ever thought was possible last year, my whole world fell apart. I guess I scared my mom by the way I was acting, as she told me after I got better that she was afraid I was going to kill myself. Hearing that shocked me, as the thought only crossed my mind once. I admit it completely, it did cross my mind, after I felt so alone in the world, but then I thought, "That's stupid. He's not worth it."
I had my entire world taken from me, and it killed a part of me that'll never come back, and it does still hurt sometimes, but I do let it drive me. Perhaps its a little mean, but everytime I do something I know he would have enjoyed, I tell him. I'm talking about my ex best friend, who meant the world to me. His family became my second family, and I loved him with everything I had. We spent pretty much every day together for a year, but his girlfriend wanted none of that, and she took him away from me. It was terrible, she'll never realize what she did to me either. He made me who I am today, and I wouldn't be going for the dreams I am now if it had not been for him.
There was a short while where I didn't want to do any of this stuff, for that fact. I considered quitting, but honestly, the best revenge is a smile. Or even better, telling them when you got to go in front of the barricade for one band, on stage with another, hang out with another one, and when you got interviews you know they would have wanted to be there for. 'Course that's what I do. Basically what you want to prove to them you won't let them get the satisfaction of seeing you be down. That's what people tend to want, you want to prove you can live without them.
Seriously though, if you are feeling that way, don't hesitate to talk to someone. I'm here too, if you want.
Random Blog #7: hermaphrodites (in rock??)
The weirdest conversations always seem to happen to me in the car, or any time with my best friend. After all the pictures Ashley Purdy and Christian Coma from Black Veil Brides posted on Twitter of them with two women, that became a topic for us. I had posted on my personal BVB fan page asking if anyone else was thinking Ashley was sort of hot. A girl commented saying simply no, so I asked her why not. She said he's too feminine for her taste. I told my best friend this, as she's said the same thing several times, and a new conversation sparked up.
She asked, "What if he was actually born a girl, and decided to become a boy?" I hadn't considered this, but I guess it's possible. It does happen, though I don't think I'd ever ask Ashley about that. Please note: I am not saying Ashley was born a girl, it was just a weird conversation that got me thinking. Imagine how badly shunned they are for just being who they are.
I personally have only ever spoken to one hermaphrodite, and I barely remember them. I talked to them years ago on a kids site called Neopets. My mom however talks to a lot of people online, and one of them is in the process of becoming a man. She has felt all her life that she was supposed to be a man, a gay man, but a man none the less. You'd think a family would accept that of their child, and love them still. Her's didn't. The worst thing ever was they actually performed an excersism on her! How horrible is that?
I feel like that happens to people a lot, and its not right. What's so wrong about wanting to fully become what you feel you are? Yes, its a long process, a hard desicion, and a very exspensive process, but should there really be a cost when it just comes to someone feeling comfortable with themselves. Its not like plastic surgery, which is only there for cosmetic purposes, most of the time. Its making your body work like your mind does.
I don't fully understand it, as I was clearly ment to be a girl, but I know but often times small children will know they're not supposed to be that sex. Little girls will insist on boys clothes and toys, and little boys will insist on girls clothing and toys. That's something that baffles me, how can little kids know that's not right for them even before they know what genders are? I guess its just nature, I don't really know. Is there anyone out there who's been through this or has been going through it? Leave a comment and tell me.
Remember, I am not here to judge, when I ask about these things, I'm simply curious. I will not shun anyone for what they are. Only time I do that is when you're justifying bad things, like bullying, cutting, killing, ect, ect. You get my drift. Leave a comment with your thoughts.
She asked, "What if he was actually born a girl, and decided to become a boy?" I hadn't considered this, but I guess it's possible. It does happen, though I don't think I'd ever ask Ashley about that. Please note: I am not saying Ashley was born a girl, it was just a weird conversation that got me thinking. Imagine how badly shunned they are for just being who they are.
I personally have only ever spoken to one hermaphrodite, and I barely remember them. I talked to them years ago on a kids site called Neopets. My mom however talks to a lot of people online, and one of them is in the process of becoming a man. She has felt all her life that she was supposed to be a man, a gay man, but a man none the less. You'd think a family would accept that of their child, and love them still. Her's didn't. The worst thing ever was they actually performed an excersism on her! How horrible is that?
I feel like that happens to people a lot, and its not right. What's so wrong about wanting to fully become what you feel you are? Yes, its a long process, a hard desicion, and a very exspensive process, but should there really be a cost when it just comes to someone feeling comfortable with themselves. Its not like plastic surgery, which is only there for cosmetic purposes, most of the time. Its making your body work like your mind does.
I don't fully understand it, as I was clearly ment to be a girl, but I know but often times small children will know they're not supposed to be that sex. Little girls will insist on boys clothes and toys, and little boys will insist on girls clothing and toys. That's something that baffles me, how can little kids know that's not right for them even before they know what genders are? I guess its just nature, I don't really know. Is there anyone out there who's been through this or has been going through it? Leave a comment and tell me.
Remember, I am not here to judge, when I ask about these things, I'm simply curious. I will not shun anyone for what they are. Only time I do that is when you're justifying bad things, like bullying, cutting, killing, ect, ect. You get my drift. Leave a comment with your thoughts.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Random topic #7: Emo does not mean EVIL (And Christwire)
"Emo" kids are always harshly judged because they wear black clothing, dye their hair crazy colors, and listen to what society likes to call "Satanic" music. So people deem them "evil". Um, no! Emo means emotional, dumbasses who think every "emo" person worships the devil.
I came across an article today that outraged me, as I am one of those "emo kids", on Christwire.com. I've heard about this site before, as they've bashed people I enjoy like Bryan Stars and I believe Black Veil Brides. This particular article states,
"However they have stood up and ended the threat of the emos though barbaric and unsurprising means characteristic of their usual nature."
Emos are not a threat! This article makes it sound like people who dress/ act emo are going to be serial killers or something. It was brought to my attention, as I was writing this, that Christwire is actually a site mocking the judgmental Christian commuinty. That's something else I don't get. If you don't like those sorts of people, why make up an entire site so you could act just like them?
I personally say, if you don't like something,don't discuss it a lot, and certainly don't make a site about it. That's just stupid. I'm aware that sound somewhat hypocritcal, considering I am currently bitching about a site that I dislike, but this is slightly different. Its one thing to rant, and its one thing to bring awareness to it, but its another thing to hate on it. I feel like the people at Christwire could be using their time so much more wisely.
What do you guys think? How do you feel about Christwire or this topic even? Leave a comment and tell me. You can also read the article that irritated me by clicking right here. I'm still unclear on what "emosexual" is..
I came across an article today that outraged me, as I am one of those "emo kids", on Christwire.com. I've heard about this site before, as they've bashed people I enjoy like Bryan Stars and I believe Black Veil Brides. This particular article states,
"However they have stood up and ended the threat of the emos though barbaric and unsurprising means characteristic of their usual nature."
Emos are not a threat! This article makes it sound like people who dress/ act emo are going to be serial killers or something. It was brought to my attention, as I was writing this, that Christwire is actually a site mocking the judgmental Christian commuinty. That's something else I don't get. If you don't like those sorts of people, why make up an entire site so you could act just like them?
I personally say, if you don't like something,don't discuss it a lot, and certainly don't make a site about it. That's just stupid. I'm aware that sound somewhat hypocritcal, considering I am currently bitching about a site that I dislike, but this is slightly different. Its one thing to rant, and its one thing to bring awareness to it, but its another thing to hate on it. I feel like the people at Christwire could be using their time so much more wisely.
What do you guys think? How do you feel about Christwire or this topic even? Leave a comment and tell me. You can also read the article that irritated me by clicking right here. I'm still unclear on what "emosexual" is..
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Random blog #6: Why the Jonas Brothers fandom faded away
The Jonas Brothers. Everyone knows the name, some people cringe at the name, others smile at the memories. They broke records of Elvis Presley and The Beatles -true legends, and now they're hardly ever mentioned. They used to be on the cover of every magazine in the store, at every award show, and traveled the world.
I was one of those hardcore fans, to the point people asked me several times if I was related to them. Many fans were obessed with them, and knew everything there was to know right down to their underwear. Now its all about Justin Beiber in the pop world, and I do not get it. Justin Beiber's lyrics go like this:
"Baby, baby, ohhh, baby."
While the Jonas Brothers go like this:
"When you look me in the eyes and tell me that you love me, everything's alright when you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimspe of Heaven. I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes."
See it? Can you see it? Not only are they unfairly judged, but they actually are insanely good song writers. Its fine by me if you don't like their voices, but you have to give them credit: They have good lyrics. I'm not writing this blog though to bitch about how their amazing and unfairly judged. I'm actually here to talk about why they faded off.
I think there's several reasons why their fame faded. They all grew up, they wanted to do new things. Kevin got married in December of 2008, released their 4th album in 2009, went on their World tour, and then Nick announced his side project, Nick Jonas And The Adminstration. Because of him having to tour for that, everything JB got put aside. Then Joe decided to follow in Nick's footsteps and release his solo album. That was when the offical hitaus was announced.
As for the fans, I think we all got bored. They stopped even talking as much, so it was almost like they didn't exsist. I think we got bored, moved on, and while that was going on, grew up. I personally, I never stopped loving them, I still get excited if I hear the name "Jonas" anywhere, and facts come back to my mind as if they were common knowledge to everyone.
Years ago, a fansite came up with the term 'Obbessive Jonas Disorder' (OJD), and I still remember that Popstar! Magazine got ahold of this term and listed the symptoms. I thought it was lame, until I read the symptoms and I fit every single one. I forget what they actually were, but it was basically saying if you thought of them constantly, always listened to their music, and knew way too much. Their fans were compared to Beatles fans, by the fact we'd wait for days, and some would pass out with excitment from it.
I don't think their fanbase is gone, in fact I know its not. I wouldn't doubt the fans to come right back just as strong when their next album comes out. Plus, I know where a lot of their fans went. I've mentioned this before, but I noticed a ton of ex JB fanatics are now BVB fanatics.
While yeah, sometimes the fandom could be a little over the top, and possibly creepy for the boys, they did it right. All major JB fans were protective of them and other JB fans, as if we were all related, and no matter what they did, we were there supporting them. Some of them were stalkerish, but hey, most bands have at least one fan like this.
I personally can't seem to give up on them, and others probably haven't either. Hell, I bet me talking so much about them on Music = Life just made a whole lot of them relapse back into an OJD fit. Its ok to admit it, I'm the one sitting here talking about all this and I am listening to them right now.
Be proud of it still, you don't need to hide it. I hid it for about a year and a half, but I've basically given up on that. I no longer hesitate to mention I like them. They're nothing to be ashamed of, depsite what "society" thinks. They're good role models, great musicians, and they're legends, if you ask me. The name 'Jonas' will go down in history.
I was one of those hardcore fans, to the point people asked me several times if I was related to them. Many fans were obessed with them, and knew everything there was to know right down to their underwear. Now its all about Justin Beiber in the pop world, and I do not get it. Justin Beiber's lyrics go like this:
"Baby, baby, ohhh, baby."
While the Jonas Brothers go like this:
"When you look me in the eyes and tell me that you love me, everything's alright when you're right here by my side. When you look me in the eyes, I catch a glimspe of Heaven. I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes."
See it? Can you see it? Not only are they unfairly judged, but they actually are insanely good song writers. Its fine by me if you don't like their voices, but you have to give them credit: They have good lyrics. I'm not writing this blog though to bitch about how their amazing and unfairly judged. I'm actually here to talk about why they faded off.
I think there's several reasons why their fame faded. They all grew up, they wanted to do new things. Kevin got married in December of 2008, released their 4th album in 2009, went on their World tour, and then Nick announced his side project, Nick Jonas And The Adminstration. Because of him having to tour for that, everything JB got put aside. Then Joe decided to follow in Nick's footsteps and release his solo album. That was when the offical hitaus was announced.
As for the fans, I think we all got bored. They stopped even talking as much, so it was almost like they didn't exsist. I think we got bored, moved on, and while that was going on, grew up. I personally, I never stopped loving them, I still get excited if I hear the name "Jonas" anywhere, and facts come back to my mind as if they were common knowledge to everyone.
Years ago, a fansite came up with the term 'Obbessive Jonas Disorder' (OJD), and I still remember that Popstar! Magazine got ahold of this term and listed the symptoms. I thought it was lame, until I read the symptoms and I fit every single one. I forget what they actually were, but it was basically saying if you thought of them constantly, always listened to their music, and knew way too much. Their fans were compared to Beatles fans, by the fact we'd wait for days, and some would pass out with excitment from it.
I don't think their fanbase is gone, in fact I know its not. I wouldn't doubt the fans to come right back just as strong when their next album comes out. Plus, I know where a lot of their fans went. I've mentioned this before, but I noticed a ton of ex JB fanatics are now BVB fanatics.
While yeah, sometimes the fandom could be a little over the top, and possibly creepy for the boys, they did it right. All major JB fans were protective of them and other JB fans, as if we were all related, and no matter what they did, we were there supporting them. Some of them were stalkerish, but hey, most bands have at least one fan like this.
I personally can't seem to give up on them, and others probably haven't either. Hell, I bet me talking so much about them on Music = Life just made a whole lot of them relapse back into an OJD fit. Its ok to admit it, I'm the one sitting here talking about all this and I am listening to them right now.
Be proud of it still, you don't need to hide it. I hid it for about a year and a half, but I've basically given up on that. I no longer hesitate to mention I like them. They're nothing to be ashamed of, depsite what "society" thinks. They're good role models, great musicians, and they're legends, if you ask me. The name 'Jonas' will go down in history.
Information on what's going on today (Like you guys really care?)
Hey everyone, its just me again here to talk about all the stuff I plan to do, but hardly get done. Totally a shock, right? Again...I wish there was a sarcasm font. Someone seriously needs to invent it. I just wanted to quickly say, I am attempting still to get the reviews done. I have about four and a half done. I tend to do that a lot, get half way through a review and stop.
I don't have ADD, my friend just always has the worst timing for calling me. Back onto the topic of the reviews, I don't think I'm gonna manage to get all twenty eight completed by technically Monday. I originally evened it out that I'd write seven reviews each day, and the next day post them. That hasn't happened. The most I've written in the past three days was four reviews in a day. I'm still going to try, and if I actually do manage that, come Monday I'll probably have about nineteen reviews. That may not be the exact number, but as I've mentioned I suck at math. Who really cares about the number, what really matters is if I am working on stuff?
What I don't think I ever actually explained was why I am doing this. The reason is, here in a couple weeks Warped tour tickets go on pre-sale, and I am hoping by then more good bands will be announced. I know that sounds irrelevant, but keep reading, its relevant. I am no matter what going to Warped tour this year, but I am actually mainly going to try to do interviews. For those who have been to Warped tour, or heard anything about it, they know these band guys, and their crew are generally sitting around bored all day until they go on stage or have a meet and greet. Its super easy to meet these people, so I'm figuring it'll be fairly easy to get interviews.
I was unaware of it, but for interviews on Warped tour, you have to go through this one set person, not the actual band managers. I heard that from a friend who talked to Alex from All Time Low for me. I didn't want to send more than one email to this person about interviews, so I am waiting as long as I can to send the email. If I get every single one I want from just the bands I know are going, there's going to be ten different interviews. That doesn't even include All Time Low that has been confirmed by them, but not by Warped, and Falling In Reverse, who has yet to say anything about it. Its pretty obvious though that they will be on Warped. So right there is tweleve different interviews in just one day. Chances are, I will be catching pretty much nobody's set. You may be wondering who all I want to interview, incase you are, I wrote up a list below. (These are just the ones on Warped.)
You Me At Six
We Are the In Crowd
Vampires Everywhere
Sleeping With Sirens
Mayday Parade
CatchingYourClouds
Motionless In White
Breathe Carolina
Blessthefall
All Time Low
Falling In Revese
I'm actually trying to decide about interviewing Mayday Parade, because I just interviewed Jeremy Lenzo back in early November last year, and I don't know if I can think of more questions. It'd help if they had some new material or something, but since all they have in the works is a video for "Stay", I've got nothing. Maybe I'll think of something.
I also am kinda iffy about Motionless In White. I'll need a lot of fan questions on that one, as I don't like Motionless In White, so I have no questions for them at all. I'm gonna watch some interviews and think up some questions, but it'll help if fans particpate. Same with Breathe Carolina, actually. Though I like them, I just have no questions for them. I only have their first two CDs, so I need to catch up, I suppose.
What I haven't told any of you is I'm pretty nuch guarenteed the Blessthefall interview, because I have a friend who's become pretty friendly with their drummer, Matt. He's talked to him for me, and apparently they've said they will absolutely do the interview. I don't really need help with those questions, but if anyone wants to ask a question, feel free to leave a question.
I'm going to wrap this up shortly, but I also wanted to say I am gonna be posting the news today! That'll be on Immortal Music probably within the hour or so. I guess that's it, I'll be back later with a random blog. Please leave a comment here or on
Music = Life with suggestions. I am so far behind on those, its not even funny. I have like three days to catch up on. Bye guys.
(I seriously need a camera...when I type things out, I read it in my head like I'm talking.)
I don't have ADD, my friend just always has the worst timing for calling me. Back onto the topic of the reviews, I don't think I'm gonna manage to get all twenty eight completed by technically Monday. I originally evened it out that I'd write seven reviews each day, and the next day post them. That hasn't happened. The most I've written in the past three days was four reviews in a day. I'm still going to try, and if I actually do manage that, come Monday I'll probably have about nineteen reviews. That may not be the exact number, but as I've mentioned I suck at math. Who really cares about the number, what really matters is if I am working on stuff?
What I don't think I ever actually explained was why I am doing this. The reason is, here in a couple weeks Warped tour tickets go on pre-sale, and I am hoping by then more good bands will be announced. I know that sounds irrelevant, but keep reading, its relevant. I am no matter what going to Warped tour this year, but I am actually mainly going to try to do interviews. For those who have been to Warped tour, or heard anything about it, they know these band guys, and their crew are generally sitting around bored all day until they go on stage or have a meet and greet. Its super easy to meet these people, so I'm figuring it'll be fairly easy to get interviews.
I was unaware of it, but for interviews on Warped tour, you have to go through this one set person, not the actual band managers. I heard that from a friend who talked to Alex from All Time Low for me. I didn't want to send more than one email to this person about interviews, so I am waiting as long as I can to send the email. If I get every single one I want from just the bands I know are going, there's going to be ten different interviews. That doesn't even include All Time Low that has been confirmed by them, but not by Warped, and Falling In Reverse, who has yet to say anything about it. Its pretty obvious though that they will be on Warped. So right there is tweleve different interviews in just one day. Chances are, I will be catching pretty much nobody's set. You may be wondering who all I want to interview, incase you are, I wrote up a list below. (These are just the ones on Warped.)
You Me At Six
We Are the In Crowd
Vampires Everywhere
Sleeping With Sirens
Mayday Parade
CatchingYourClouds
Motionless In White
Breathe Carolina
Blessthefall
All Time Low
Falling In Revese
I'm actually trying to decide about interviewing Mayday Parade, because I just interviewed Jeremy Lenzo back in early November last year, and I don't know if I can think of more questions. It'd help if they had some new material or something, but since all they have in the works is a video for "Stay", I've got nothing. Maybe I'll think of something.
I also am kinda iffy about Motionless In White. I'll need a lot of fan questions on that one, as I don't like Motionless In White, so I have no questions for them at all. I'm gonna watch some interviews and think up some questions, but it'll help if fans particpate. Same with Breathe Carolina, actually. Though I like them, I just have no questions for them. I only have their first two CDs, so I need to catch up, I suppose.
What I haven't told any of you is I'm pretty nuch guarenteed the Blessthefall interview, because I have a friend who's become pretty friendly with their drummer, Matt. He's talked to him for me, and apparently they've said they will absolutely do the interview. I don't really need help with those questions, but if anyone wants to ask a question, feel free to leave a question.
I'm going to wrap this up shortly, but I also wanted to say I am gonna be posting the news today! That'll be on Immortal Music probably within the hour or so. I guess that's it, I'll be back later with a random blog. Please leave a comment here or on
Music = Life with suggestions. I am so far behind on those, its not even funny. I have like three days to catch up on. Bye guys.
(I seriously need a camera...when I type things out, I read it in my head like I'm talking.)
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Random Topic #5: People trying to change me.
Lately I've noticed a lot of people trying to change me. Pretty much all of my real life friends are into Pokemon and anime. I'm not into any of that, but I enjoy my friends company so I just sort of put up with their talk of it. Of course lately, some of them are saying, "You need to get into anime." or "You should be into Pokemon." There's no 'need' when it comes to interests. It also annoys me that some people assume if you enjoy anything you're not actively interested in for even a second that you secretly love it. You can momentarily enjoy something you're not totally into. I keep trying to tell them, its not that I hate the things they're into, its just that I personally really don't care about it.
Then today someone who's known me since we were kids, says to me, "You need to get into the rap scene." I hate rap. I've never enjoyed it, and seeing as I am nearly nineteen years old and still don't like it, I really don't think I will. He said I should expand my horizons, and I'm all for that, generally, but when it comes to rap, I'd rather not. I'll listen to it if someone else turns it on, but I don't personally like it. It all sounds awful to me, even if the lyrics are good.
It occured to me that maybe others feel the same way about people trying to change them. Maybe others are getting sick and tired of hearing they 'need' to be into something. To me, that feels like they're trying to change you, and then I stop and think, "Why can't they just be happy with who I am?"
I don't know about you, but I personally, do not care what people think most of the time. I'm pretty sure I'm mentioned that before, but I really don't care. I am who I am, and I'm very comfortable with that, so it irritates me when people try to change me.
If anyone else is facing the issue of what I suppose is peer pressure, ignore it. Not all peer pressure is bad, I mean, without it, I don't think I'd be the person I am today, but if people are trying to push things you don't like or bad things onto you,ignore it. Or even better, if its at all possible, remove such people from your life. You don't need someone trying to push bad things on you, and sometimes no matter how against it you are, you'll give in. That is never a good thing.
I guess this was more of a mini rant instead of an article trying to help people...
Then today someone who's known me since we were kids, says to me, "You need to get into the rap scene." I hate rap. I've never enjoyed it, and seeing as I am nearly nineteen years old and still don't like it, I really don't think I will. He said I should expand my horizons, and I'm all for that, generally, but when it comes to rap, I'd rather not. I'll listen to it if someone else turns it on, but I don't personally like it. It all sounds awful to me, even if the lyrics are good.
It occured to me that maybe others feel the same way about people trying to change them. Maybe others are getting sick and tired of hearing they 'need' to be into something. To me, that feels like they're trying to change you, and then I stop and think, "Why can't they just be happy with who I am?"
I don't know about you, but I personally, do not care what people think most of the time. I'm pretty sure I'm mentioned that before, but I really don't care. I am who I am, and I'm very comfortable with that, so it irritates me when people try to change me.
If anyone else is facing the issue of what I suppose is peer pressure, ignore it. Not all peer pressure is bad, I mean, without it, I don't think I'd be the person I am today, but if people are trying to push things you don't like or bad things onto you,ignore it. Or even better, if its at all possible, remove such people from your life. You don't need someone trying to push bad things on you, and sometimes no matter how against it you are, you'll give in. That is never a good thing.
I guess this was more of a mini rant instead of an article trying to help people...
Monday, March 5, 2012
Random Topic #4: Labels suck!
Labels should be for soup cans, not people. People are all just people, that's what they are. What they are, does not make them who they are.
If you ask me, there only should be two 'labels': Yourself, and fake. If you're not being true to yourself, you're being fake. Why should it matter to the rest of the world if you like to wear bright colors and do your hair all crazy, or if you like to listen to screaming music while wearing black, chains, and band shirts? What you like can define you, but who says it has to?
If everyone would stop for a moment and think about things before they called someone "emo" or "hipster", or whatever, maybe people would be happier. Its one thing if you call yourself something, because that's how you see yourself, but its another thing when someone else says it and you know its not true. It can be hurtful, or even just down right wrong. I personally call myself a rocker chick, because I wear band shirts, and all that stuff. Some days I look emo, some days I look goth, and others I look damn girly! It doesn't matter how you dress, its who you are.
Nobody is just one thing, so don't let it get to you when someone calls you one thing, because they don't know you. If they want to be stupid and use labels, let them. Its just a waste of their time, but it doesn't need to get to you.
If you ask me, there only should be two 'labels': Yourself, and fake. If you're not being true to yourself, you're being fake. Why should it matter to the rest of the world if you like to wear bright colors and do your hair all crazy, or if you like to listen to screaming music while wearing black, chains, and band shirts? What you like can define you, but who says it has to?
If everyone would stop for a moment and think about things before they called someone "emo" or "hipster", or whatever, maybe people would be happier. Its one thing if you call yourself something, because that's how you see yourself, but its another thing when someone else says it and you know its not true. It can be hurtful, or even just down right wrong. I personally call myself a rocker chick, because I wear band shirts, and all that stuff. Some days I look emo, some days I look goth, and others I look damn girly! It doesn't matter how you dress, its who you are.
Nobody is just one thing, so don't let it get to you when someone calls you one thing, because they don't know you. If they want to be stupid and use labels, let them. Its just a waste of their time, but it doesn't need to get to you.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
All my 'news' deserved to be in a blog.
I didn't want to post a long drawn out status on Facebook, or many little ones so a blog just seemed more suitable. Ok, so as I mentioned on Music = Life, I have my photoshop back thanks to a friend of mine who managed to save it for me. I haven't decided what the themes are gonna be just yet, but I'll think of something. I'm considering Falling In Reverse for the Music = Life picture and All Time Low for Immortal Music's layout. That or possibly Art Of Dying for both. I don't even know!
Normally I decide by either what I'm really into at the time, or who's got something big going on. Art Of Dying is going on tour shortly with Shinedown, and I'm dying to see that, but my reasoning for wanting to make them the layout is because they are one of my favorite bands, I'm friendly with their manager, and I've been listening to them like crazy lately.
I don't know, I'm going to try to get around to changing everything either today or tomorrow, and I'm going to contiune over the next couple of days working on questions for Blessthefall and Safetysuit. If you have any questions, please submit them. :)
Normally I decide by either what I'm really into at the time, or who's got something big going on. Art Of Dying is going on tour shortly with Shinedown, and I'm dying to see that, but my reasoning for wanting to make them the layout is because they are one of my favorite bands, I'm friendly with their manager, and I've been listening to them like crazy lately.
I don't know, I'm going to try to get around to changing everything either today or tomorrow, and I'm going to contiune over the next couple of days working on questions for Blessthefall and Safetysuit. If you have any questions, please submit them. :)
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Random topic #3: What guys think girls want, and what they really want.
Guys and girls think vastly different, that's common knowledge. I've come to realize the majority of guys seem to think girls only want assholes who are going to treat them wrong. Being a girl, I know that is not true. Not generally, anyways, some girls are only attracted to assholes, but not every girl.
I started thinking about this topic yet again after listening to "Gentlemen" by Theory Of A Deadman. If you have not heard that song, please take a moment to listen to it below before reading on. I have posted a YouTube video for the song right below this sentence.
Not long after I heard this song for the first time, I mentioned it to a couple of my guy friends. I simply wanted their take on things, and they agreed with the song. "Girls don't want a gentlemen, they say they do but in the end girl's don't want a gentlemen." They said that nice guys finish last and its always the jerks that get the girl. This thought has bothered me a bit, because I personally don't like it when a guy acts like a dick to impress his friends, and then acts sweet around me. That's simply being two faced, and that is not right to me.
As said before, yes, some girls only do go for these assholes who really don't have a good bone in their body. That's because either the girl was desperate, he faked being a nice guy and now she's just feeling conflicted on what to do, for whatever reason they enjoy being pushed around or ignored, or its all about looks or their 'status'. I feel like the most common reason is actually because these guys are two faced. They'll act one way around their girlfriend, and another around everyone else. However, in high school though, it seems like another one high up on the list is someone's social status or looks. Some girls are shallow, and will only date a guy because of how they look, or if they're rich or popular.
Here's how I see it, and I want all the guys to pay attention to this. Not all girls are the same, so don't assume we are. Before you go saying, "Well, I'm a nice guy and because of that, I get put in the 'friend zone'.", you guys do that to girls too! Not only does it work both ways, but some girls actually consider their guy friends first. Many of us know that friendships make better relationships, you just have to be willing to risk the friendship. It is a big risk, but that's a whole other subject. Maybe I'll discuss that tomorrow.
Most girls just want a guy who'll keep their thoughts and opinions in mind, who'll be there for them without being too clingy, who'll listen and be faithful. Most of us don't care if you go out with your friends, or want to stay home and play on the Xbox instead of hanging out with us, we just don't like it when you don't answer your texts or phone, because then we get worried. Yes, we get jealous sometimes, but so do most guys, right? I personally, am not a jealous type, and a lot of girls aren't, but if you give them the reason to be jealous, they will be jealous.
Don't assume we're all the same, because no two humans are ever the same.
I started thinking about this topic yet again after listening to "Gentlemen" by Theory Of A Deadman. If you have not heard that song, please take a moment to listen to it below before reading on. I have posted a YouTube video for the song right below this sentence.
Not long after I heard this song for the first time, I mentioned it to a couple of my guy friends. I simply wanted their take on things, and they agreed with the song. "Girls don't want a gentlemen, they say they do but in the end girl's don't want a gentlemen." They said that nice guys finish last and its always the jerks that get the girl. This thought has bothered me a bit, because I personally don't like it when a guy acts like a dick to impress his friends, and then acts sweet around me. That's simply being two faced, and that is not right to me.
As said before, yes, some girls only do go for these assholes who really don't have a good bone in their body. That's because either the girl was desperate, he faked being a nice guy and now she's just feeling conflicted on what to do, for whatever reason they enjoy being pushed around or ignored, or its all about looks or their 'status'. I feel like the most common reason is actually because these guys are two faced. They'll act one way around their girlfriend, and another around everyone else. However, in high school though, it seems like another one high up on the list is someone's social status or looks. Some girls are shallow, and will only date a guy because of how they look, or if they're rich or popular.
Here's how I see it, and I want all the guys to pay attention to this. Not all girls are the same, so don't assume we are. Before you go saying, "Well, I'm a nice guy and because of that, I get put in the 'friend zone'.", you guys do that to girls too! Not only does it work both ways, but some girls actually consider their guy friends first. Many of us know that friendships make better relationships, you just have to be willing to risk the friendship. It is a big risk, but that's a whole other subject. Maybe I'll discuss that tomorrow.
Most girls just want a guy who'll keep their thoughts and opinions in mind, who'll be there for them without being too clingy, who'll listen and be faithful. Most of us don't care if you go out with your friends, or want to stay home and play on the Xbox instead of hanging out with us, we just don't like it when you don't answer your texts or phone, because then we get worried. Yes, we get jealous sometimes, but so do most guys, right? I personally, am not a jealous type, and a lot of girls aren't, but if you give them the reason to be jealous, they will be jealous.
Don't assume we're all the same, because no two humans are ever the same.
I had the coolest dream last night! (Featuring Ronnie Radke!)
Last night I had a dream that I wish would come true. Maybe one day it will, just in a more logical way.
I had a dream that I was apparently going to a Falling In Reverse concert, and for some reason I was staying at the venue. Meaning I was living there. I'm not even kidding, it was the strangest thing. Walked out of my room, even though it looked nothing like my room, into this mostly empty room. All it had was a stage, and a couple people.
I don't remember exactly how it happened, but someone told me that if I wasn't going to the show I had to go back to my room. So I told them, "I am going to the show." Oddly though, they never asked for my ticket. There's no logic in that, honestly. So I'm hanging out, waiting for things to start happening. People start coming in and I'm just chilling in the back.
I suppose it looked like I worked there, because at one point a crew member came over to me and asked where they could put their stuff. I told them there was a room in the back that they could put stuff in and they walked off. A few minutes later, Ronnie walked in. Correction, he walked right into me.
I turned around and started to say, "Watch where you're going." But then I saw Ronnie, and didn't want to say anything bad to him.
He apologized for running into me, and I told him it was ok. Then it dawned on him that he had no idea why I was out there, and wanted to find out if I was just a fan or what. I told him I am a fan, but I live in the building and am actually a music journalist. He asked if I had questions for him, and I said yes. Ronnie said he had some time, so if I wanted to do an interview to go get my questions.
Of course I ran and got them right away! Only problem is, I can not remember a single question I asked, I can only remember standing there talking to Ronnie for what seemed like forever. Even though it was probably only a minute or two in all actuality.
I've noticed the more serious I get about wanting to interview these band guys, the more I quite litterally dream about it. First one was Ashley Purdy, now Ronnie? I'm surprised I haven't had a dream yet about interviewing All Time Low, The Ready Set, Three Days Grace or the Jonas Brothers. Those are the highest on my list.
I had a dream that I was apparently going to a Falling In Reverse concert, and for some reason I was staying at the venue. Meaning I was living there. I'm not even kidding, it was the strangest thing. Walked out of my room, even though it looked nothing like my room, into this mostly empty room. All it had was a stage, and a couple people.
I don't remember exactly how it happened, but someone told me that if I wasn't going to the show I had to go back to my room. So I told them, "I am going to the show." Oddly though, they never asked for my ticket. There's no logic in that, honestly. So I'm hanging out, waiting for things to start happening. People start coming in and I'm just chilling in the back.
I suppose it looked like I worked there, because at one point a crew member came over to me and asked where they could put their stuff. I told them there was a room in the back that they could put stuff in and they walked off. A few minutes later, Ronnie walked in. Correction, he walked right into me.
I turned around and started to say, "Watch where you're going." But then I saw Ronnie, and didn't want to say anything bad to him.
He apologized for running into me, and I told him it was ok. Then it dawned on him that he had no idea why I was out there, and wanted to find out if I was just a fan or what. I told him I am a fan, but I live in the building and am actually a music journalist. He asked if I had questions for him, and I said yes. Ronnie said he had some time, so if I wanted to do an interview to go get my questions.
Of course I ran and got them right away! Only problem is, I can not remember a single question I asked, I can only remember standing there talking to Ronnie for what seemed like forever. Even though it was probably only a minute or two in all actuality.
I've noticed the more serious I get about wanting to interview these band guys, the more I quite litterally dream about it. First one was Ashley Purdy, now Ronnie? I'm surprised I haven't had a dream yet about interviewing All Time Low, The Ready Set, Three Days Grace or the Jonas Brothers. Those are the highest on my list.
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